Intimacy. When I used to hear that word, I thought of physical closeness--as in between a woman and a man. I thought it was a tabu word and not one to be used in everyday conversation. I had never experienced a level of intimacy in a relationship outside of marriage. Google the word intimacy and this is the resulting definition:
No wonder I was misled. When my mentor, Shae Bynes, started using this word to describe a relationship with God, I cringed. How can you use the word intimacy and God in the same sentence? A-w-k-w-a-r-d. Isn’t it amazing how sometimes our misinterpretation of something can cause us to miss out on something truly extraordinary? I was missing out on all the benefits of having a relationship with God at this level--and had been for decades.
I was saved when I was 17 years old and I had a zeal and heart for God, but it was based more on doing good works and being a “good girl” than it was about Him just loving me for me. From the time I got saved until my early 40s, I strived to have a “right” relationship with the Lord. I did everything to be good and follow Him. When I would screw up, I’d go into a black hole of despair--beating myself up because I just didn’t measure up to what I saw other Christians doing. I didn’t have the perfect family life, the perfect upbringing, the perfect schooling--and because I didn’t have these things, I thought Christianity wasn’t for me. It was as if I had accidentally “gotten in” and I needed to make sure I wasn’t found out or I’d be kicked out.
Amazingly, through my screw ups, God seemed to show me favor and continued to bless me-- even when it didn’t seem like I should receive anything. Maybe I was even fooling God! I continued to live this way and while I would pray and talk to God, I never stopped to listen to what He had to say. It was more like, “Here are my plans Lord. Bless them.” I would look for signs to confirm I was right and bulldoze my way through. Until one day I could no longer force things to go my way. When my husband and I decided to try and conceive children, we experienced two miscarriages. It was in that second miscarriage that I realized I really didn’t know who God was, much less who I was in Him. I had a choice. I could either deny He even existed and continue on this spiral of anguish, or I could go all in and find out exactly who He was and why He created me.
I chose to go all in. In doing so, I learned that one can have an intimate relationship with God in its true original definition: a close familiarity or friendship.
“Some friendships don’t last for long, but there is one loving friend who is joined to
your heart closer than any other!” Proverbs 18:24 TPT
One of the ways I grew in my intimacy with the Lord was to learn how He created me. In discovering this, not only did it help me understand the depth of love He has for me, but I also understand Him better. One of the most common questions I hear from Christians is, “How do I hear from God?” When you have intimacy with Him, you will learn His voice.
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27
God talks to us all day, every day. Just like He spoke with Adam and Eve in the cool of the garden, He desires to have a real, true, deep relationship with us. My desire is to help you discover this level of intimacy with the Lord. Everything changes when you do all things with Jesus. No longer do you have to carry those burdens on your own; He takes them. No longer do you have to toil over a decision; He gives you the answer. No longer do you have to feel lonely or like you don’t fit in; He calls you His child. Intimacy is the foundation of experiencing God’s best.
I would love to walk beside you on that journey of intimacy with the Lord. I invite you to use any of the resources on this site to take that next step. Or feel free to reach out to me with questions, to share your own journey, or just to say hi.
Here is the short, official bio:
Angee is the COO of Kingdom Driven Entrepreneur, whose mission is to inspire, teach, and mentor entrepreneurs who desire to be led by God in their business so they can experience His best and have a greater Kingdom impact in the marketplace. Angee is a certified Life & Career Coach. She is the founder of Freedom2Focus, Inc., a business that she and her husband, Dave, ran for the past 18 years. They provided online support to small and start-up businesses to help free them to focus on why they started their business. Angee and Dave reside in the Panhandle of Florida.